So last night I packed a big suitcase with most of the clothes that I need and I went to my friend's house. There I unpacked and started my new life. What a strange feeling it was. To know that what I had done to my wife had real consequences. And that I had to pay the bill for what I had done.
As I was packing, the STBe and I were talking about Congressman Weiner and his whole junk picture thing. She said "He was so smart and good, why would he do something so stupid?". My reply was "You do it once, you get away with it. You do it again, you get away with it. The thing is he didn't think. Not for a moment did he stop and think.". That is when it hit her. I wasn't talking about Weiner, but about myself. I never stopped to think how my actions were going to affect others and what could happen. I know it now, for damn sure. I went from a 2700 square foot house with my pictures, my stuff and my dog to a small room with only half a closet. Someone else's things on the wall, someone else's cats... Don't get me wrong, I love them for being good friends to me and helping me in my worst time.
I have had the thought of having a real talk with S. A "come to Jesus" talk with her to find out if this was a colossal waste to time or if there is a real shot. I know what she will say..first its the kid..then you never know what will happen, he might die tomorrow. Yeah, I can too.
Lastly, the job hunt continues and just is frustrating as hell. About 20 jobs applied for and nothing so far. Not sure what to do next. Any ideas?
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