What this is about...

Over the last few months, my life has just crashed and burned. Let me say that it's by my own doing. Since this is anonymous, I can give you enough details to help make sense of this. But this blog is going to be about all facets of my life. From the things I'm thinking, feeling to stupid things like movie reviews.

Let's start at the beginning. About 10 years ago I met a woman. I was separated from my then wife, living apart. This woman was married with 2 kids. I know what you are thinking, and yes we started to have an affair. It was one of those things where we would get together when I was in town which was about every 6 weeks. I moved to the same city she was in and it continued. Point of notice - This woman is the ONE. I fell in love and fell HARD, like THE ONE. And she fell in love with me. The I Love You's are flying constantly.

Here is where it gets messed up.

I met a woman and started a relationship. We dated, got engaged then married in about 2-3 years time. She had 2 teenage daughters at the time who are now adults. Understand, I fell in love with this woman as well. In love with 2 women. During that time, I never really stopped talking and seeing the other woman. We got caught once. A little bit of time went by and we didn't speak. Sure enough, we started again and after about a year, we got caught again. So you would think that we would have learned one or two things. Either that or we would have made moves to be together. But.....

Fast forward 3 more years. We haven't spoken in years though I always thought of her. Always loved her. She was the one that got away until.....we ran into each other. Emails started flying, phone calls got more and more and we finally went out. We both escaped for a night. Sure enough that night my wife had a funny feeling and it led to a 3 day discussion about things. The fact that I still loved that woman. I finally said that I can't continue to hurt her by lying anymore. The nicest thing I could do in this marriage is end it. We filed the papers and it will be final in about a month and a half. The kids are of course very disappointed in me as well they should be. But I am their Dad and that won't change.

What will happen in the future with this other woman? I don't truly know. Do I want her to leave her husband? Yes. He is not a nice person and a crappy husband. But in the next few posts, I will just go on about thoughts and feelings. I need to have a place to put this, even if not a damn person ever reads it.